Then said Almitra, Speak to us of Love.

And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:

When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.


When we had broken up I said that you were dead to me/
I wanna eat my words and choose em' more carefully/
But you took them with you down below, buried deep/
I'm awake in pain, while you rest in peace/
And your pretty face is something that I'll never see/
Shit, I'm thinkin' bout these things that I'll never see/
How I'll never have you back as a friend to me/
Never see another show with you next to me/
Walking down the aisle, in your wedding dress and me/
In my chair, smilin, trynna hide my jealousy/
Looking back, laughin while we grow elderly/
I'm awake in pain, while you rest in peace/
What you left behind, it don't rest in me/
Too recent to dismiss it as a memory/
A lack of rest, from choosing what you meant to me/
I was in love with you, my worst enemy/

When I first moved here, when I was in my youth/
Before I called this home, before I put down my roots/
Before every heartbreak that helped define me/
by turning into lessons that came to me so timely/
Before I likely, become who I might be,
bring those up who stood right beside me/
Before your burial, there was you/
The first I met in a place now unbearable/

I swear, I've seen your ghost on the road at night/
You follow me home and when I go to close my eyes/
I feel cold then you show yourself a glowing light/
New form, new shape, but it's no surprise/
12 years, for 12 years I'd known you/
Saw all the looks and, phases that you'd go through/
Eyes changed colors when leaves turned to gold you/
felt like a new person every time I'd hold you/

Now you're something that I can't hold/
At the same time you make my heart heavy/
And unsure, of just how to remember you/
'Cause I remember you with baby bangs and overalls/
listening to older songs in grade school, strolling halls/
with homework and texts books clasped inside of both your arms/
I remember when we had our first kiss/
You floated to my lips and I felt your legs lift/
But I wish, that one day I could forget/
The day I cursed your name and, wished we'd never met/
That morning I saw you, for the last time/
You stayed the night but walked out from the room that wasn't mine/
and then I felt like I wanted to die/
You brought back all the feelings I had of suicide/
that I worked so fucking hard to put aside, you and I/
me and him, would never be the same again/
I never wanna feel that shame again/
And I said I never wanna see your face again/
but now I wish I could see you just, one last time/
And honestly, I don't know what I'd say/
I loved you, I hated you, it changes everyday/
I don't think I'll ever know exactly what you meant to me/
but one thing's for certain I know how much you meant to me/

It almost cost me everything/