I'm tired of living with filth/
I've many dreams but seems only these nightmares are real/
I contemplate how I could make a change in my reality/
Then back to dirt, to being dragged inside this gravity/
My actuality is always surrounded by calamity/
And all these addicts, who sit idly and dreamless/
But in the back of their minds there might be hiding a genius/
If only, they had the fire to spend more time to reveal it/
Instead, they only keep it up inside of their heads/
While any light of theirs they shine is put to a pipe, and I dread/
I might be going down the same way/
I'm trynna go down a different path in life but, all they do is say stay/
I'm trynna change things, move from the past/
And those who say they want the same latch onto my back/
they're dragging me down, keeping this reality real/
I needa look at them and say I'm tired of living with filth/
I'm dousing bridges with this gasoline/
And this fire shines a light that I haven't seen/
I hope it guides my way
I hope it guides my way
As the flames are burning high/
I'm finally seeing now just where the surface lies/
The smoke'll guide my way/
The smoke'll guide my way/
You can miss me with that bullshit/
Quit your yappin,' little homie's only looking foolish/
Nuisance. You want my two cents?/
You should stick your neck out but then put it where that noose is/
Deuces. peace, nice to know ya/
Said to be a beast when you be crying over no one/
Coming up to me then you gon' fail to find a shoulder/
I'm like ayatollah, rest in the sky, the cloud's my sofa/
Above the clouds, I know that's where I wanna be/
But people right in front of me are trynna go and front on me/
Like, Sean, I can't believe you're leaving/
But I know that they're deceiving and their misery loves company/
The same ones that claim they loyal to the core/
But stealing other peoples fires the way they keeping themselves warm/
So I'm cold, calling death to all the ones that only hold me back/
Then looking past, can't stop to give a fuck on how they gon' react/
I'm dousing bridges with this gasoline/
And this fire shines a light that I haven't seen/
I hope it guides my way
I hope it guides my way
As the flames are burning high/
I'm finally seeing now just where the surface lies/
The smoke'll guide my way/
The smoke'll guide my way/
You can miss me with this bullshit/
Angles changed and tables turned, and now I'm seen as ruthless?/
I'm wiping off my palette, clearing everything thats useless/
But if painted as a villain then I'm proud to be the culprit/
Seems the ones who deal the most wrongs are the first/
To cry foul the worst of who I write these rhymes 'bout/
So It's time I'll, tell em' pipe down, and hush hush/
You sus fuck, go hang your head low and die... now/
I'm the one who's, trynna escape/
Find me a place, that's high up in the sky to create/
While, you might also share some similar dreams/
But won't commit to a thing, unless it fits in your schemes
Or, is handed to you, but ain't that embarrassing?/
to make it to a new place but, you were only carried in/
I'm cutting off dead weight, all this carrion/
With the same hatchet that I said that I was burying/
credits
from Chamomile,
released August 8, 2017
Produced by TROX
If you were a fan of the production work Steez did on here, be sure to check out his first release called Bless. He's working hard on some new music that is really going to showcase his range. Ahnom
You can't go wrong with Oddisee. Everything he has made is amazing. If any rapper has influenced me the most recently, it's hands down Oddisee. If I could be half as good as an MC as he is... Ahnom
Tope is a local hero to me from the Portland rap scene. To be real, I don't follow the local scene here too hard, but Tope will always be an artist I think of when someone mentions Portland. Ahnom