It's been a while since I looked at myself/
That, look at the mirror, ask what's good for your health/
That, wonder what is was you did to yourself/
to make you live your life and go from all that sickness to wealth/
Love was something that I thought that I couldn't afford/
but when I started writing lyrics then I booked to record/
it's like my shoulders softened, felt fully restored/
and had faith again that maybe I was good in my core/
I found, carrying the world's weight left me stressed out
something that I let down, then told myself, flex now/
And look, at all you can hold/
Stopped worrying about things I can't control/
'cause, that takes a lot of space/
and is the cause for a lot of heart break and a lot of aches/
But in my arms now are only things worthy of love/
paid for by giving up everything that hurt me enough/ the price of love
It's been quite the journey, been through some things
some say might've hurt me, but I still stand upright/
Though this one life we have can often be a tough fight,/
I'm hurling what it throws back until I get my throne back/
and I'll be looking at my legacy then say I own that/
Every bit of it, every piece of it/
Every bitter part I've savored and it's sweetnesses/
Strengths and weaknesses. Me and steez with it/
saw what was needed then he went to chop and sequence it/
And now we deliver a product of our art/
that of which came to you all from the bottoms of our heart/
but couldn't have been made if only I'd just thought it from the start/
If it weren't for these struggles these words wouldn't exist/
I wouldn't have the grit to stay strong, couldn't persist/
So if you relate at all in your own times of suffering/
then these struggles that we go through, it meant something/ not for nothing
credits
from Chamomile,
released August 8, 2017
Produced by Steez
If you were a fan of the production work Steez did on here, be sure to check out his first release called Bless. He's working hard on some new music that is really going to showcase his range. Ahnom
You can't go wrong with Oddisee. Everything he has made is amazing. If any rapper has influenced me the most recently, it's hands down Oddisee. If I could be half as good as an MC as he is... Ahnom
Tope is a local hero to me from the Portland rap scene. To be real, I don't follow the local scene here too hard, but Tope will always be an artist I think of when someone mentions Portland. Ahnom