I had to leave and take a walk tonight/
In my head right now not all is right/
I took a second not to think about you/
Just to see this mess I am, how stressed I am/
I guess I am, not just neglected by you/
But also most often myself and the others I feel lesser than/
You smoke, I don't, the love I get is second hand/
You never told be a better man/
You said that I was perfect for you/
And that used to mean a lot to me/
But I'm seeing now, that is such an insult/
To be the one for someone who enjoys watching me sulk/
And seeing me, on my knees begging please these results/
Are bespoke of one who never thought of life without you/
I never saw a life without you/
But I add it everyday to the things that I'll do/
Maybe tomorrow, I'll do it all, maybe tomorrow/
But sometimes I don't wanna see tomorrow/
Maybe tomorrow, I'll wanna see tomorrow/
I'll wanna breathe from out of, these two lips/
that sip drips of whiskey left from bottles/
That are empty, hollow, just like me when I'm settled onto/
All my problems unsolved. I'm to my neck in sorrows/
I'm hoping maybe tomorrow, the guillotine'll swing/
it'll give me inner peace. Been thinking of leaving it to me/
But I have fear of the beyond and which deity I'll see/
But maybe tomorrow, I can turn into a ghost/
And get to be with ones I know loved me the most/
And maybe... why's it always maybe tomorrow?/
Maybe tomorrow, I'll at least say maybe today/
Then maybe cut the ties from all the things that made me this way/
I hate when I say, maybe tomorrow, so I'm saying today/
I'm gonna change, but it's already late/
Already sick and tired from life, and all that I drank/
So maybe tomorrow/,
credits
from Chamomile,
released August 8, 2017
Produced by Steez
If you were a fan of the production work Steez did on here, be sure to check out his first release called Bless. He's working hard on some new music that is really going to showcase his range. Ahnom
You can't go wrong with Oddisee. Everything he has made is amazing. If any rapper has influenced me the most recently, it's hands down Oddisee. If I could be half as good as an MC as he is... Ahnom
Tope is a local hero to me from the Portland rap scene. To be real, I don't follow the local scene here too hard, but Tope will always be an artist I think of when someone mentions Portland. Ahnom